kalpurna

If anyone has managed to resist the forty thousand recs for heresluck's new vid, In the Mirror, consider this your official notification that you are an idiot. I actually do that, you know – resist reading a book because all my friends tell me how great it is – so I know whereof I speak. Stop doing that. It's dumb.

I can't decide whether to go to the supermarket or not. On the one hand, tomatoes and mozzarella and orange juice and ice cream are all things that I need. On the other hand, I would have to put on pants. These are the dilemmas of my rockstar lifestyle.

Back to the vid, though. I'm caught up in it so much today, the lyrics as much as the visuals (being the compulsively verbal bitch that I am). I have semi deep thoughts about this, especially in conjunction with her earlier, Fraser-centric vid, Out Here, but I have a feeling they've all been said in more interesting ways by other people; stuff about RayK in motion and Fraser's gravity, Fraser's ability to be alone in a city full of people and Ray's inability to separate himself out from other people.

What I'm more interested in right now, though, is one line from the song. (Um, go watch the vid first, because I don't know if you can spoil a vid with lyrics, but if you can, I don't want to.) Specifically, the bit that goes,

In my dreams I love you like
A snowstorm in the night
The window's open wide
Here comes reflected light.

What an image! Love that arrives while you're asleep, bright and overwhelming, transformative, turning everything new as it drifts quietly through the window you forgot to close... The song takes issue with dreams in the next few lines, but I'm still left with that picture, and of course with Ray Kowalski, trying so hard, loving so fiercely. His love for Fraser is like a gift, so spontaneous and right, and yet so full of friction, so close to failure every step of the way. When they finally make it through, I think it's almost despite themselves.